Restless

I enjoy adventure and change.

Right now, where I am...

I am restless.

Alexis

I have three sisters.

Jenny, Whitney, and Alexis.

Alexis is the youngest, and that has made it the hardest to get close to her.

When I was 14 I went to UCA, and since then I have only lived at home for my summers.

When I was in India, Alexis and I got closer. It's funny that it took me going to India, to finally get to know my little sister, that is not so little anymore.

When I came home from India, Alexis was no longer a little girl. She was finally a teenager, one of us!

Since then, I have had the opportunity to really get to know my sister.

I am lucky.

Alexis is a crack up. She is creative with the way she thinks, and I love that about her.

I see a lot of me in her actually.

She is becoming more of a lady, and that makes me extra protective!

You want to know the only thing that bothers me about her?

She has a cuter wardrobe than me! What the heck?

Alexis, If you are reading this...

Thank you for being you.

And making me feel great about being me.

One of my fav pics. It has excitement written all over it.

I get so caught up in things.

I am all emotion.

Excitement always finds me.

Sometimes it's hard to catch up with myself.

I guess that is what makes my life never boring.

Walla Walla

I went to Walla Walla this week. A lot can happen in one visit.

I have been praying about this Africa trip. I told God that if it was what HE wanted, then I would go, but if not I wouldn't fight it.

I found out on Thursday night that Africa wasn't going to work out. That was my answer. I'm not going to fight it.

I was happy to get an answer so quickly from God, but somewhat disappointed in my answer. I guess me wanting to go to Africa, was almost a way of running away.

I found that mission work is a drug. It's addicting.

Helping. Purpose. Adventure. The ultimate closeness to God- It's all addicting.

I have been having a hard time being back and feeling the loss of those great things. I know that I can find them here. No, I know that I WILL find them here!

So, the final plan...Walla Walla. And I'm ok with that.

Craziness!

God is one crazy guy!

God's timing always amazes me. It is always the right timing, even if we don't know it yet...

I have always wanted to go to Africa...

I came home earlier than expected from India...

Since the day after I came home, I wanted to be a missionary again-It's addicting, seeing the world and helping all at the same time, there are very few things more beautiful.

So here I am, wanting to travel and help again.

So here I am, wondering when my next mission will come.

So here I am, praying, wondering, where my next move is.

So here I am, getting an offer to go to Africa for spring quarter.

So here I am, excited, but knowing that whatever God wants me to do, is going to happen.

So here I am, just waiting, because God is REALLY going to have to make this happen.

So here I am, getting calls from Alex Paulson, and emails with good news one after the other.

So here I am, watching God work it out.

It's fast, scary, exciting...

So here I am, God use me!

My Mind Just Won't Quit

Is it possible to have too much...of God?

I feel overwhelmed. I am tired of thinking so much, and feeling so much. So so much.

I have been resorting to my room these past few days. I'm not lonely, or depressed, I just want to think and read and study and pray. It's addicting.

On my bed, I have two journals, three books, pads of paper, pens, and a highlighter.

This addiction is wearing me out. Today I took a break, and I feel somewhat guilty.

How Do I know?

How do I know when I am getting the answer?

It is Time.

"I am home now."

Sometimes it is hard to say those few words.

Four words that seem simple. Four words that you can send in a text message to a friend or family member any day, everyday. But for me, these word tug on my heart.

It's like if I say it, it is true. Really true.

Real.

I am home now, I am not in India. And it is time for me to accept it. It is time for me to live here. It is time for me to find what made me come alive in India, here. Here at home.